Generation 4: Part 4. Land of Confusion

My first day of going to work! I was so excited. Ever since I got that job in a small concern in the middle of Appaloosa Plains, I had been looking forward to this day. Finally I could start working to earn my own money! Since I never had a job after school –like helping out in the bookstore or stuff like that-, this was a first for me. I just hoped it would go well.

Well, except that it started with me being late for work, the first day was really great. Everybody was nice to me and I felt at home straight away. It was nice to know that I would be staying here for some time, at least until I was a department head. At that point it was time to find a new challenge, but until then I was really happy with that job.

Now being out of the house most of the time meant that my father had to take care of the entire household and Cora. This apparently was something he couldn’t accomplish before. Just have a look at our dining room – it’s a mess! I decided to hire him some help, so that he wouldn’t be on his own with this. The maid agency I called promised me to send someone straight away, but it wasn’t before the next day that a male (!) maid stopped by. He basically just cleaned the dishes, the bathroom and then left, but that was better than nothing. And I could cope with the rest when I got back from work. (Sorry, but I really don’t get tired of saying this “going to work” – “coming back from work”…) The most important thing was that my father was able to rest a little, since he had become really old in the last time. Dealing with my mother’s death was tough for him and I felt really bad for leaving him behind all day while I was doing my thing (not going to say the “w”-word now), but someone had to earn the money for our living. Living with a dog wasn’t exactly cheap either – the food alone was really expensive. In addition she regularly needed new toys and stuff for her entertainment. Life wasn’t exactly great, but I was trying to get there.

My father really enjoyed his days in our new house – most of the time he was painting now. His painting skill really had improved a lot in the last few months, so it was really good that he didn’t have to take care of the house as well. That possibly would have led to a loss in creativity and also energy. Something I didn’t want at all.

By trying to make my father’s life as pleasant as possible, it was obvious that I couldn’t take care of my wishes, as well. I tried to, but it just didn’t work out. In my free time I just watched TV, always listening if my father was doing okay, or went for a short walk with Cora, but always took my cell phone with me so that my father could contact me if there was something wrong. This was so incredibly frustrating! This wasn’t the life I wanted to have. The life I really wanted included a woman, love and companionship, as well as a job I loved and some friends to hang out with every now and then. Now compare this to the life I currently had – yes, I had a job I liked. But that was it. My friends were busy with their own things and my girlfriend…well, we hadn’t talked much in the last few weeks. Actually we were colleagues now, which would technically include more contact than before, but somehow that didn’t happen.

Something inside of me told me to try one more time. Maybe we just needed a cooling off period for some reasons, and now were on a better track than before. It was definitely worth a try, this girl had known me most of my life and knew me better than anybody else, except maybe my father.

We ended up doing our own things in the house – she went to play on her computer and I read a book that I found in her book shelf and wanted to read for a very long time. I guess this shows that we actually are perfect for each other. We are able to spend some time apart while we are together. That was good. Right? RIGHT??

Later that night I decided to check up on my half-sister Tamera (Author’s comment: Kim’s and Felipe’s daughter), as we didn’t get to talk much at work either. Yes, she was working at the same company as Cassie and me. Sometimes the world is just a really small place. Anyway, we had a great time jamming at their pool.

While I wasn’t experiencing any kind of romance, my father seemed to have fallen for somebody recently. He had told me a few times that there was one woman that made him feel special again. She was nothing like my mother, but he felt appreciated, which was something he apparently missed. When he told me about this, I was a little shocked, because he was already really old, but at the same time relieved that I wasn’t the only person in his life anymore. That partly took the pressure of me. I most certainly didn’t know that this woman was Gracie Loveland, Cassie’s mom! Seeing as we had flirted, this made me really uncomfortable.

When I tried to talk to him about it, he didn’t really get my point. I told him that I wasn’t really happy with him dating Gracie, but kind of left out that we had been close to having an affair. Instead I made this about my relationship with Cassie only and told him that it would be awkward if my father was in love with my maybe-mother-in-law. Lame, I know. But it was the best I could come up with. It didn’t help anyway, because he insisted on seeing her.

After that had completely failed, I went to talk to Cassie, hoping that she would understand. She had just gotten back from work and was in a really bad mood, which made her being more snappy than usual. Every day I wondered if she was the right woman for me and it were situations like these that made me think she wasn’t. I know that I have thought about this before, but my mind gets twisted around so much that I can’t tell right from wrong. Hopefully I will find a solution soon, before I get hurt.

Author's notes: Sorry it's been so long! The lessons in first grade required much more preparation than I thought, so that I didn't get to playing Sims or writing at all.Now the internship is over and I'm really sad about it :( Teaching the little ones was a lot of fun, really. And I will miss them....

Anyway, on with Finn's story. I am still way behind on the game, so that there should be 3-5 more chapters until I've catched up. At the same time I want to know what's going on next, which means I should write faster, catch up and then continue playing. Or something like that.

And something about the picture-uploading: I now did the whole thing on the HTML editor and it worked!!! *gives Susan a big cookie* Thanks a lot for helping me out and explaining everything :)